My name is Casey

Like Most Revelations

It is the movement that incites the form,
discovered as a downward rapture--yes,
it is the movement that delights the form,
sustained by its own velocity.And yet

it is the movement that delays the form
while darkness slows and encumbers; in fact
it is the movement that betrays the form,
baffled in such toils of ease, until

it is the movement that deceives the form,
beguiling our attention--we supposed
it is the movement that achieves the form.
Were we mistaken? What does it matter if

it is the movement that negates the form?
Even though we give (give up) ourselves
to this mortal process of continuing,
it is the movement that creates the form.

Richard Howard


You turn to me with frozen lips
Your hands are icy cold
Your eyes burn bright against the frostbit sky
You never seemed more lovely than you do tonight
Pale on the horizon,
Like leaves frozen on the snow
Our two shadows merge inseperably
And time stands still as its pierced with cold

The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you

There's a warmth in my heart
That haunts me when you're gone
Mend me to your side,
Never let go
So time knows nothing
We'll never grow cold
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Twilight descends on our silhouette
How soon spring comes
How soon spring forgets
I wanna hold time, say it'll never begin
Old man winter, be our friend
Old man winter, be our friend
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
What's simple is true
I love you
I love you

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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

 

This is a feeling of helplessness... but there's still hope. Sometimes I think that helplessness is easier without hope, it creates a submission... you don't have to fight anymore... however, that is not a very noble goal.

My pride and my future aspirations both demand that i continue fighting, and it sounds strange, but i made the realization that in any other period of my life today would have been the sort of day where I'd have come home and attempted suicide. Circumstances change, and so do I.

So as of today, I am not talking to Brendan. Zack has been added to my ignore list, and Becca isn't talking to me. Sadly enough, these were my 3 allies.

I find it almost depressing that the two people in my life that i don't hate (much less love) live thousands of miles away... it's nice though. i have someone.

i feel like crying. i feel like nothing. i feel worthless because it is so easy for in one day my father to prove that he doesn't love me and my friends to prove that they don't value me.

I feel subhuman... i am a means to an end.. the ability to use people to get something turns them into items, and once they are items any and every atrocity against them in the name of some greater good is justified.

Today was a day of justification.

I love you |8:42 PM